Satisfied

I find the way life turns out to be, amusing. At this moment, there are so many emotions going on through my head, both good and bad. For some reason I feel like alcohol takes out the best out of me. Maybe I will become one of those alcoholics who turn to alcohol when they are stressed or depressed from something. I really hope not though. Last night was incredible. I went over at a party at Ana's house. I saw the majority of my high school friends. It was good to see everyone's differences come together again. We started off eating, because the food, like always, was delicious. Then we started playing ping pong; had a single's tournament and won second place. I lost to Alexa, which pretty much explains itself. Then we played Apples to Apples, having that many people play was amazing. Then the drinking went down. Of course the heavy drinkers who usually get drunk were driving, so I was the only one who wanted to go all out. We played some twisted ten fingers were a lot of nasty things about people were discovered. The wild side of some people started to unleash. Sitting on the porch with everyone laughing and drinking, made me realize how much I missed each and every one of them. For some reason, I felt like I could just stay there forever. Ana's house brought so much memories back to me. It was like high school all over again. Throughout the whole day, it was interesting how "you and me" did not cross my mind. Normally every time I am reminded, some how, a feeling of heartache comes in. This time it was different. It was not until you texted me late night, that your name crossed my mind. Thinking about you made me smile. Not because I miss you or regret anything, but because it didn't hurt. We had a really unexplainable past. No one can define it, but me and you. No matter how many people judge me or you, in the end I still see you the way I see you, because they do not know anything. They do not know what we went through, or anything we still go through. At this very moment, I do not know what we define what we share right now. All I can say is, the "friend" has sunk in. My promise of being there forever does not seem difficult anymore, because I know I will. I am finally strong enough to say that I will be there through your hardest and easiest times, and everything in between that. Follow your dreams, no matter what family or friends tell you. You will make it. :)
I can not forget everyone making fun of my low GPA. It is okay, I am an Engineer. Environmental Engineer to be exact. I am surprise that I am still passing. Definitely need to step up my game. I am border line passing and failing, some-what. Freshman year is over. I can not forget about my college friends, and how they play a part in my life. Jersey City seems so quiet without them. Well actually, it is more like Hoboken. It feels different that I can not just wake up and decide to head over to school because I am bored. I better hang out with the Massive guys though; they are not as far away as the two girls. Summer is definitely going to be different this year.
I am starting my CO-OP term. I am working in Jarchem at Newark as a Sales and Marketing Research. I will also assist in the laboratory procedures. I will be working there full time from May 18 until December 18. I start tomorrow. A part of me is really nervous that I am finally going to be working in the real world. But for the most part, I am really excited that I am going to be working in something I really like. I have my own desk, my own computer, my own telephone, and my own cubicle. I am very excited waking up every morning, dressing up all professional, and for the fact that I will be one of those PATH "yuppies". A l0t of other people are not so lucky getting a job like this. I will not mess this one up. I will enjoy it as much as I can. This is going to be the first year I am going to stay in the country, even worse, New Jersey. I miss riding a plane. I am most likely going to try to have a weekend in the United Kingdom or some other place that is close. I refuse not having a summer vacation. I am still contemplating on whether I should get a weekend job. Wait nevermind, I do not want to miss my birthday weekend. :)
On another note, this morning I had a hard time falling asleep because I was hungry, but really lazy to go downstairs. I just laid in bed thinking about a lot of things, and I realize that I dislike many things. For anybody that will read this and feel offeneded, please do not take it personally. My next words will also show my hypocrite side. I dislike people who talk to me while I scratch my eyes, and then decide to laugh about it. It really has got to stop. I dislike people who are easily persuaded also known as followers; learn how to make decisions. I dislike people who tend to suck up, not to teachers, but to other people. I dislike many ghetto aspects; so Jersey City, please pull those jeans up and get rid of those Roos. I dislike people who purposely bring other people down especially through getting good grades, especially when I am the one who gets the low grade. I dislike people who are not competitive; boring boring boring. I dislike people who question what I want to do in life. I dislike people with no manners, especially in the PATH trains or the Subway. People who complain constantly about the fare hike; please just accept it, a petition will not work. I dislike people who do not know how to match their clothes (sometimes I find it to work really well). I dislike people who free load. I dislike people who do not pay back when I do not know them very well. And but the biggest thing I hate right now is people thinking they are "the shit" for any dumb reason. Wow I am an asshole.
Even though I dislike so many things, I realized there are a lot of other things I really like. I like people who can debate, and are able to understand and bring out parallel counter-attacks. I like it when people do not agree with me, because I tend to enjoy the argument. I like people who are materialistic. I like people who are business-minded, only because I find a need to look up to them. I like it when people listen to my advice, because I feel like I have helped. I like people who do not get emotional or angry during an argument. Holding a grudge is a bad thing. The best thing I like right now are people who can make me laugh. Laughing is my favorite thing to do.
This blog is getting pretty long, and I think I have let out all my thoughts as of the moment. I need to head up and buy some suits, ties, dress pants. So as I end this on a positive note, I can say I look back to the certain things I left in the past and laugh. No regrets. Thinking of my life now, I am very satisfied.